Panic attacks Hospitals, and People who dont listen

the last few days have been filled with pure panic. I dont know where they came from or what spurred them on. Normal ppl can say stop panicking, you wont die, everything is ok...... Ya?? That doesnt help. I know theres nothing to panick about really. But that doesnt help when im in the middle of one. Because last nights was so bad I went into the hospital for some help I was given some xanax and then they tell me : To walk 10 minutes a day. That will help you. UM NEWSFLASH WERE YOU LISTENING WHEN I SAID I GET LOST EASILY OR IM AFRAID TO GO IN PUBLIC??? OR lets try this one: Are you afraid you are going to hurt yourself?? UMM I DONT KNOW IF IM AFRAID, BUT I AM THINKING ABOUT CUTTING AGAIN??????? Hellloooooo moron, Cutting might be different from a plan of sucide, But it still means im a small risk to myself if the feelings are there. And then there is the big one because they made me feel like crap because I havent been able to get into see my counselor for three weeks. NO EXCUSE they said. THANKS IDIOT YOU JUST MADE ME FEEL WORSE THEN WHEN I CAME IN. Oh and lets give you a prescription to get you over the worst, then call this number so you can see someone regularly. HELLO I JUST TOLD YOU I HAVE NO INSURANCE NO WAY OF PAYING FOR SAID STUFF, HELP ME OUT HERE, FIND SOMETHING. Of course thier response was SORRY DONT KNOW HOW TO HELP WITH THAT. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr