The WHY in midst of pain.

When sensless things happen we are always going to ask WHY? Why him? Why this family? Why God did you let this happen? Sometimes we never get an answere. Sometimes there is no answere. But every once in a while God decides to share the WHY answer with us. This week in the middle of our WHY questions we got our answer. We know now that God needed our friend to save a life of a little girl, with his heart and kidneys. He is now an angel looking down and smiling. It still is hard to say goodbye, we will go through the pain of the service, seeing his family, knowing that this is forever. But one day we will be able to look at this like God needed him, and we know it wasnt in vain; it will one day help the pain go away, maybe not totally, but at least the sting of it.

grief, confusion, and media lies

when grieving over someone dying, its not supposed to be so dramatic. its not supposed to be this back and forth thing, "yes he did; no he didnt; yes he did." Its either he did or he didnt. you take one news cast that reports that he died on sunday, and then the family was like really? news to us. Its been a mess to say the least. unfortunatly its caused a lot of confusion where some of his friends are so confused they dont know how to let go now. they dont want to let him go. Understandable. Its been one loop after another after an other on this rollercoaster. But now that we know he is in heaven, it should be easier to grieve. Just feel bad for these kids who have had to grieve once, twice, three times now over this. Sooo I dont know.

HOW? WHY? WHERE ARE YOU GOD?

I don't understand you sometimes God. You are supposed to be a just God, a merciful God. But how are you when tragedy stikes, especially twice in a family. Why is this happening to this family. What did they do to deserve this? Where are you God?? Those are good questions and they are valid. I wish i knew the answers. Our church friends has a son who got trapped in a sand tunnel him and the other kids were digging, he was the last one out and got trapped for 20 minutes without oxygen. He is now in a strange hospital, in a strange town, with doctors he doesnt know around him. He is on lifesupport with no chances of making it back as his brain is dead. His family is with him. But this isnt fair Its not supposed to happen to him. They went through this 15 years ago when the eldest got struck by a car and was in a coma for a long time, though he made it ok, other then being a quad now for the rest of his life. IF there is NO improvement They will think about taking him off lifesupport. THATS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME GOD I WANT TO SEE A MIRACLE!!!!!! I WANT TO SEE ZAC PLAY AND JUMP WITH OUR YOUNGER KIDS AGAIN. But at the same time I am thinking of the song by Wayne Watson, At the Ultimate healing WE will be HOME FREE. Praying for a miracle is great, its what God wills that we have to pray for thats tough. And it hurts to pray for that. But we must.