it has a name

this spot im in has a name, its called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. very common with trauma victims, its just not for soldiers anymore. We mapped out at least 8 events in my life, im sure not even all of them were mentioned yet. now we have to dig into these events to get me to feel normal again to the way i relate to the world. So it doesnt feel like my world is stopping. going to get intense real fast. we will see how it goes. i dont know what to feel now, or how to feel. my mania is simmered down, but that could be because i have a cold, adn my body is tired. I dont know.